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But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Cor. 12:9

Does every girl struggle with friendships?

Friday, May 28, 2010

I’m a young woman and consider myself a mature adult. I enjoy fun hobbies and can be light and adventurous but I’ve also had big decisions, challenges, and responsibilities to carry out. I believe this makes a ‘normal’ woman.

I also consider the ‘but’s’ in my situation. I married young, so I’m not dealing with relationships like others at my age. I don’t have kids. I have moved many, many times and just when I start gaining trust in and with someone I leave. I struggle with feelings of security. In my comfort zone I would never relocate and all my loved ones are near. God has really taken the task to always have me out of my comfort zone. I’m glad he does. He is the only one who can and still comforts me in His peace.

Friendships are hard for me. I don’t want to dwell on my childhood drama but I know that’s a small part of my issue today. I didn’t have many girlfriends growing up. I considered myself “not pretty” yet I embraced the attention I received from boys. Even in the youth group at church I had bitter encounters with other girls. I married and entered ministry, where friendships are almost non-existent.

Eventually, I gained the friendships of a few ladies who God put in my path. G, E, S, L, M, L, are some of the few ladies whom I feel free to be me and loved regardless. Sadly, all are miles away living their own lives. Many times I’ve wanted to call and just ‘be’ but my analytical mind doesn’t let me. I say to myself, “They have important things to do” or “She will tell me she is busy and can’t meet like last time”. The feelings of loneliness and inadequacy seem to always give a hint. When it’s really bad the other thoughts come, “Maybe if you just had a child, you would have something in common like so many women”.


Just typing this out and letting it come to the light is freeing – why? Because that thought is a LIE. God is the creator of life and I don’t need anything or anyone to feel accepted because God accepts me as his child. That’s truth!

I have friends. So, what’s my issue?

I would like to have friends whom I share important events, feel comfort around them; enjoy times of laughter and deep moments. I want my friends to be close, I don’t want to plan trips and spend sometimes hundreds of dollars to see them. I want to settle. Grow roots.

At the end of day, I have the 2 most important friendships a girl could have. God. My hubby. I believe it’s very important for a girl to have friendships that encourage her, discipline her with maturity, and most importantly love her. I will choose to trust God. Maybe it’s not my season to have such friendships, I mean really have them. Maybe I have enough to deal with in strengthening my marriage and completely be healed and restored. God knows best. Always. Even when I don’t understand it and wish it was different. I know in the past he bought certain people in my life who became lifesavers. He is the gate of my relationships, to doubt the friendships I have is to doubt Him in a way.

Jesus, I thank you for loving me and accepting me for all that I am. You never rejected me and you always have the best for me. Help me remember everything you’ve done for me. You are faithful and I believe you and the Words of promise you have set for me. Amen.


Tripadvisor for travels, Churchrater for worship?

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

By inviting ordinary worshipers to post reviews from the pews, the website aims to help Christians navigate the more than 330,000 churches across the U.S. to find where they fit on Sunday morning.

This is a quote from an article about a new website called “” where people can view reviews on churches to help them decide what church to attend.

Are you kidding?

I’m a huge fan of the internet for shopping, comparing products, and researching services but this is NOT COOL! Who’s fault is that the people in America view the church just as a “Sunday morning chill spot?”

I’ve met many people who I’ve asked your typical “where do you go to church” and the response is “oh we’re just church shopping for now” Huh? No, not acceptable. Not even the term is to my liking. I know people relocate and need to find a place where to worship, but the Bible gives us direction on this.

Acts 13:52 says “The believers in Antioch were full of joy and the Holy Spirit.” In Acts 16:6 we see the Spirit guiding believers to where they should or should not go “They traveled through the region of Phrygia and Galatia because the Holy Spirit did not let them preach the message in the province of Asia.”

If we are considered to be a believer and a follower of Jesus Christ then we must also believe that the Holy Spirit (that He left as our Helper) will fill us with peace and joy and direct us to where we should be in everything we do, including the congregation where we worship and serve. Church is not for shopping – that’s my opinion.

Wait on God. Pray. It’s worth to it ask and wait. I’ve also met many, many people who have literally been lead to the place where they need to be. That’s either a place where they can serve or be restored and healed. God knows best, not a website. Besides, even the internet is NOT as accessible as God is. Thank you Jesus!

After Missionary Thoughts

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

It feels like it’s been ages since I last blogged. I received an email from a blog buddy yesterday and I think she is right; it’s time for an update.

We’re officially back in the U.S. Ta-da! The last 2 weeks have been sad for me. I think about Mexico all the time. I dream about being there. I dream about my family in El Salvador. I dream of the travel disasters I’ve had. I dream. I think. I think too much.

I need a job. We don’t have much money and the little money that we have is to buy groceries, gas, and such for the next couple of weeks. So I need a job soon, before that money runs out. My hubby sort of has a job. He is working with a friend fixing cars. Its some cash but we don’t know how long that will last.

I go online whenever I can and I search for jobs and post my resume. I eat and cook for hubby. And repeat the next day. I don’t want to leave the house because that means spending money. I learned in Mexico to live frugally everyday, that means if you have money to run the car and pay for gas you can afford to leave unless it’s absolutely necessary. However, being at home can be so depressing. The difference in Mexico was that I could walk to the store or a friend’s house. Everything here is miles away. I’m not depressed. I will not speak or think that I am depressed. Maybe I’m bored. Maybe I’m not focused. But I know this is not me. I’m outgoing, I’m motivated, I’m a go-getter. I like adventure and enjoy it when I’m so busy that I desperately look for free alone time to spend writing, reading, or praying. That is who I am. Not this.

It seems like the missionary who hiked the mountains, the friend next door who counseled broken women, the wife who bargained at the marketplace, and the daughter of God who anticipated the alone time is so, so, so far away.

I wait patiently on you Lord. You make my sad days bright. Your love comforts me and strengthen my soul. I am yours here, in Mexico, or wherever you take us. Guide me Lord. Open doors and bring the right opportunities. Help us make a new life here. You are faithful. Amen.

Recap -day 6 trip to El Salv.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

I’ve been here for 6 days. My mind has been completely out of scope as for my regular routine. Meaning, blogging hasn’t been my priority, but last day I thought to write for my own sake, to remember as much as I can from this trip.

Aside from the anxiety of waiting a day for my flight and loosing my camera, when I finally got here everything seemed so much better. My first Saturday I spent mostly with my brothers watching a soccer game in a fast food joint. I visited my grandma real quick and went to my Ulises’ church with him. It’s a Baptist church so I felt a little out of place since I’m used to a little more freedom during worship but my heart felt glad to be with my brother and supporting his decision to follow Jesus.

Sunday was great at my dad’s house with all the family there. In the evening we set up the projector and watched a movie, as a family. I’ve had lunch with my aunt Nelly, had very good conversations with my aunt Lety, and spent some time with my grandma Rosita. Last night I invited everyone to see a movie. We saw “How to train a Dragon”. It was a nice treat for all.

Today I’m having lunch with my daddy at Pollo Campero, one of my child memories.

God, help me remember every day of this trip. It’s been your gift to me, you reward, your time, and blessing. I want to cherish it forever. I’m so thankful Father for you love and mercy.

PS: Please provide another camera. Amen.

Freebie: Worship Song Download

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

I found a free mp3 music download and since I’m so nice I will share with you 😉  If you are not familiar with Rita Springer this is a great opportunity to hear her worship. She is an awesome worshiper and singer.

"You are good" by Rita Springer

Taste and see that the LORD is good. Blessed is the person who takes refuge in him. Psalm 34:8

El Salvador here I come!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

The Lord has been gracious and kind. He is allowing me to visit my family in my home country after 2 years since my last visit which only last 3 days.

I’m excited.

I’m anxious.

I’m emotional.

I’m thankful.

I can not wait to spend 3 weeks with my father and family. Thank You Jesus for this wonderful gift. You saw the desire of my heart, you tested my faith, you reward my labor – YOU ARE GOOD ALWAYS!

I leave you with El Salvador scenery. Enjoy!

Freebie: E-Book Download

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I think everyone in this life, Christians or non-Christians; have felt the need for forgiveness or the need to be forgiven, or probably BOTH! If you’ve had to deal with forgiveness then you know it’s sometimes a difficult process to go through.

Learning To Forgive can be described as a manual on forgiveness. Complete in every way, tackling virtually every subject. Learning to Forgive takes on the major issue concerning today’s church body— Unforgiveness. Under the banner, “Forgiving Each Other Is A Commandment From God, Not a Suggestion,” Learning To Forgive goes straight to the source of the problem— the wound. It reveals what God is asking from us and what He is not, what forgiveness is, and what it is not. You will learn to detect and identify your wounds, how to process future wounds in a healthy way, and walk out forgiveness on a daily basis. Everyone needs to know what is in this book.